SHE.HER.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Finally... i managed to open my mouth and speak up about that issue in my previous blog.

Fiance is physically fine but i can guarantee, he is emotionally stress and half hearted.
Questions came in and out before the word "YES".

I'm relieved but guilty feeling is there still. Guilty of making him worried, stressed & confused.
I am truly sorry Fiance. I don't mean to bring you into this kind of situation.
Here i am begging for your TRUST dear. I just wanna help out.

Thank you so much for believing in me.

Thank you so much for your kind understanding.

I promise that i will take good care of your feeling.No Hurts!

On a higher note, with my help to god-mum, at least someone knows that i have the passion for doing the "gubahan" and maybe one day, strangers will call me up and there i start a small business. And that is my dream baby! Insya'allah!

fullOfpassion;
sWeetieSins

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Should i tell the truth or should i keep it tight , throw it away and forget about it??

What if Fiance found out the truth? Will be have the trust on me again? And what if i tell him the truth, will he allow me?

.: The 'ex' siblings are getting married this coming June. My parents, me and Fiance are invited. His mum or shall i say my god-mum is asking a favour from me if i can help her with the 'gubahan'. Gosh...I'm caught in the middle. What should i say to her?

I super-love to do the 'gubahan' thingy. I have the passion for that. I would really love to help her with it. But of course, all this is not because, she is my ex mum. Never in my mind i thought of him. Mum really need help for that. She has no daughter that she can depend on. And now, she need to rely on me whom she treated like her daughter. She had bought all the stuffs and still awaiting for my reply. Not only mum.. Abang(the groom) is also waiting for my answer. Ya'Allah... macam mane nie?

Will Fiance allow me to help Mum? I am very sure he is reluctant to do so. Furthermore, it has got to do with "the case of the ex".

Still have not discuss this issue with him yet. How and where should i start? The wedding is just a week away. Ya'Allah, kau bukakanlah pintu hati nya....

Ma, i will try my very best to assist you with that.

InDilemma;
sWeetieSins

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Mother's Day

Strictly for Ismail's family... Since it falls on Sunday, lovely siblings had planned for a movie. It has been awhile since the last time we gathered. It's hard for us to be together, everytime. If one can make it the other cannot. haiz... I've always want/tried to keep the bond alive between us and finally on Mother's Day, without begging and forcing, all of us make it to the movie. I know it's lame to go for a movie on mother's day but, it's the thoughts and effort that counts. I'm happy and glad that lovely siblings had spared their time for that day.Thank you lovelies. Appreciate it so much.

I was on morning shift but that doesn't hold me back.Requested for time off. Met them at Downtown East.Shucks! Was 10 mins late for the movie.Guess what movie??
JANGAN TEGUR!!

Mum & Dad was sitting together infront of us so that they can't do the hanky-panky thingy! muahaha!!*joking*
3 of us sat together.

Overall story=6/10
Sound effect=8/10
"Terkejot" effect= *thankx eh!* 10/10

Tell you, a heart attack patient can die because of it! I was cursing and swearing when it comes to the suspense.grrrr..... I was like confused don't know which one to shut. If i shut my eyes, i'm not able to see what happens. If ears, i might missed the best sound effect. Better to cover my mouth! If not, people will throw popcorn on me.haha...

Well,movie was like ok lah. After movie, headed to D'marquee. There was a warehouse sales going on. Mum bought dad 2 shirts. haha... It should be the other way round! What lah my dad! At least i rejected when mum wanted to buy me a polo-t although i was like "mmm.. lawanyer!"

Then, headed to Jalan Kayu for a Dinner or i can say Supper lah. Mad Jack was crowded and had to wait 45mins.Gosh! 10steps forward, we ended up at Cafeela. Since Sis paid for movie earlier, so i paid for supper. But BRO! u owe us ok! Owe $$$ pay $$$!

We had equally heavy supper.While supper-ing, i was kinda touched to see all of us together. With the lame jokes from my Bro, an irritating cum cute behaviour from my Dad,the joy/laughter from Mum,care n concern from Sis, really opens up my mind that, wow! i am so grateful to have a happy and complete family with a well up-bringing background. Now did i realized that how important a family gathering is. Hoping for more gathering from now to make a strong ties.

On the way back home, Dad drove to the flats that i wanted to show them that was one of the selected house on sales. This coming Wednesday is the balloting period. I will need to select a house by then. Still thinking, should i proceed or wait till October(next sales)? If i choose to proceed, i will select the flat that i showed Dad cause it's BIG and has a nice layout. But if i proceed, i have to get married soon in order to produce the marriage cert cause the flat is ready.
NO! I don't wanna "nikah gantung"! People will like, "eh kenape nikah je? tak sanding? jgn2 shot gun tak!"
you know all this mulot tempayan.Won't stop bitching around. hmph!

But if i postponed it, i bet, there won't be this kind of flats in the next sales.I will miss it right.haiz...Confused. Nvm, will wait till Wednesday and will see how and what is Fiance's flows of plans.

Well....I had a great day with my love ones.Treasured the time spent

I love my Mum.I love my Dad.

I love my Siblings

I love my family

and oh! I love my Meorie! "meow" :)

goodnight everyone;
sWeetiesins

Monday, May 11, 2009

Happy to say that there is no sad in us for 608days since
11th September 2007...
Will always pray and hope to enter the next stage of the relationship...

Promised to stay true to each other.

Promised to be a faithful partner.

Promised to go through everything together.

Promised will make it to where we dreamt of.

And promised that you'll gonna be the last.

Thank you so much for the patience & support when times were bad.

Thank you so much your unconditional love you showered me with, without neglecting it even a tiny dot.

I APPRECIATE,I TREASURE,I CHERISH you boy....

Once again, Happy 1year 8months Anniversary!

DangeroulsyInLoveWithYouFandi...
YourFiancee;
sWeetiesins

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After Allah
And Rasulullah
Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father...

Mother's love cannot be replaced...

Always RESPECT.APPRECIATE.LOVE.CONCERN
for them cause you'll never know when....

iloveyoumama...
yourdaughter;
sWeetieSins

Sunday, May 3, 2009

*Time check* It's 2.10 early morning now.
*surround check* hmm... It's raining cats and dogs.I hardly sees the traffic lights which is just 50meters away from my desk.Strong wind makes the tress sway left & right.
Ouch! I heard the thunder roar.
How nice if i could be under my duvet with the a/c on and someone hugging me from the back! awww....
WAKE UP! I'm at work now! back on night shift for another 3more days.Since it's weekend, there's nothing much to do. Done my audit.Done my print-outs.Done my......GOSH! It's not done yet! my monthly market list and charges... Nah!!
I'm taking a chill pill now. Ain't got the mood to do my stuffs today. Am feeling exhausted.Bodies are aching everywhere which i don't know why.I've not been active for the pass few days.last activity was the TreeTopWalk with baby and that was last Weds...maybe,lack of sleep.
My eyes, back to square one.PANDA EYES.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~

It has been a week since my pay day and i'm left with nothing now! Gosh! How am i gonna survive till the next pay?
Never been this tight before.Never dump my shopping before.Never go Zero in my ATM before.
STRESS.STRESS.STRESS.

i NEED $$$.$$$.$$$.

Should i start that tiny-miny business i had in my mind to earn extra cash?? Since baby will never let me out to do some part time job, why not? But, how far can i go? Or should i continue begging him with that pathetic face so that he'll let me work.haha...dream on girl.
I bet his answer will be, "Let me do that part time job and i'll hand all the cash to you."

I know he wants to be as much responsible as possible.I know he wants he himself to carry that burden for me.I know he wants the very best for me.I know he wants me to know that he LOVES me.I knew that baby.Thank you so much for showing that you care but too bad
the answer is NO! Absolutely NO! It isn't fair for you. You're not my slave baby. You're my FIANCE.
I wanna be independent.I will find a way to earn extra cash.The LEGAL way ok! I don't wanna depend on you always. OR else i'll be spoilt! Our marriage life will face difficulties if you pamper me too much.
UNDERSTAND LOVE!
*cayang kamu*

Ok! Time for a Dilmah Tea... and WORK?? maybe.. haha... or SLEEP!!

ps:baby just phoned me.he's coughing! down with sore-throat :(
Gotta meet him after work...

$$$$$$$$$$$minded;
sWeetieSins

Who should I give my love to?My respect and my honor toWho should I pay good mind to?After AllahAnd RasulullahComes your motherWho next? Your motherAnd then your father...

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After Allah
And Rasulullah
Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father...